"To My Mom"

I used to be calm.

I used to hug her tight on her legs.

I used to nod with everything she said.

I used to light up her life.

I used to have fun with her.

I used to be nice.

I have seen the fireflies on the night sky

But darkness is what I had become.

Her eyes would flood with tears when I go out with my friends at night.

I see sparks from her hair as I turn up the volume.

 She shuts the door when I look at the bright light

Of my computer

I ignore her advice and end up in fights.

I insult her which words witch I throw like knives.

She would slam the table with a BANG.

I could feel the fever of her rage like a drumbeat

We would scream for hours.

She would grab me tight by my hand.

And would look at me with the face of a thousand volcanoes.

The grimace in your face cut my heart.

 We have come apart.

Those days of love are over.

I have ignored her.

I have changed mother.

And now I’m struggling.

I have turned.

Into darkness.

Mad.

Alone.

Heartless.